Friday, May 8, 2020

Vision

Yesterday, I washed my car.  We have two large trees in front of our house and at times they get messy. Since my car now often sits in the driveway for days without being moved, it slowly gets covered by tree debris and dust.  Normally, I would take my car to the local car wash, a family owned business that has been in the neighborhood since the 50s.  I enjoy sitting on the bench and watching the comings and goings of the customers and the people who work there.  Sometimes I read, but usually I am content just to sit in the experience.  However, the car wash is closed now, so I brought out the bucket, hose, and brush and washed it myself. A very different experience, but not unpleasant. I look forward to being able to see clearly out my back window when I drive to the produce market.

Supporting family owned businesses and food producers is important to me,  and I see this as a spiritual practice.  Humans typically do better when we are in relationship with one another, preferably not with masks on, but that is a precaution we must now take. Zoom is proving to be helpful in many ways, but one of its most important offerings  is that the technology allows us to see one another's faces.  We are in a time of tremendous change and upheaval.  I am hopeful for the future, but like most people,  I have concerns as well.   One of the lessons we are learning (or perhaps relearning) is that we are connected to one another in deep and far reaching ways. When there is a break or tear in these connections, the rending of our social garment can spread far. The same is true for the environment. Yet, we also see that both can be healed.      

I find myself thinking about the Apostle Paul.  I believe he, too, missed being with those he cared about. He travelled great distances, and was often detained by imprisonment or house arrest. Yet, he maintained relationships with prayer and writing letters. We are doing much the same thing. While there have been technological advances in how we can reach out, I do not think our basic need for relationships has changed.  We need that sense of connection with one another and with our own divine souls. This allows us to experience the Christ among us and provides the stability we need for a creative and generous life.  I pray we always seek those connections in healthy, loving ways.  In Romans 8:38-39 Paul wrote, "I am convinced that nothing can separate us from God’s love in Christ Jesus our Lord: not death or life, not angels or rulers, not present things or future things, not powers or height or depth, or any other thing that is created."  An unwavering truth is that we eternally belong to God and to one another.  Let us trust and accept that, and go forward in love.     
 
Shop local when you can.  A neighbor may be depending on you.     
  
Photograph was taken at Villa Maria del Mar in Santa Cruz a few years ago.  I hold those good sisters and their beloved staff in my prayers.  
   



Wednesday, May 6, 2020

The Invitation

 "When we stop complaining, we will be in paradise."  
Kabir Helminski     
 
"Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me."
Revelation 3:20   

  
When I came across the quote by Kabir Helminski, I immediately thought of the passage from Revelation.  If we can stop our mental chatter, maybe we can hear Christ quietly knocking, wanting to share an invitation with us.   
 
Our neighborhood is proving to be a pretty good one for sheltering in place.  We have a small produce market close by, as well as a good meat market - both family owned.  With the assistance of my weekly CSA box, I find I do not have to go to Safeway too often. I have time to cook, read, and do some cleaning, although I confess there a few tasks I am behind on.  I am able to dedicate the first hours of every morning to God in reading, meditation, and prayer.  Then, I either do yoga or take the dog for a walk.  I realize I am fortunate in all of this, and most of the time I am grateful.  Yet, this morning, the political news was disconcerting  (as it often is) and for a moment, I almost lost heart. I wanted to get away: maybe take a journey up the coast where Tyler, Jack, and I could stop and have lunch, do a little window shopping, and then find a small inn where we could spend the night.  Of course, little of that is feasible now. However, as I unpacked my CSA box, I found some beautiful red spring onions and a large bulb of fennel.  I decided that fish grilled with those two vegetables might make for a good supper. I went to the market and fairly quickly was able to purchase some fresh ling cod.  I came home, did a bit of yard work, and admired the beauty of the clover blossoms that seem to be enticing bees and other insects to linger in our yard.  I filled the birdbath, and watered some plants.  When I paused, I realized that a cool breeze was blowing.  I gave thanks. Yes, right where I was.       
 
We really are always invited to let Christ in.  For a moment, I lost sight of that ever present welcome. My door was closed.  I neither heard an invitation, nor was I extending one. The table was not set. Regardless, the invitation was there. The love of Christ cannot be experienced in a wish for things to be different.  Instead, we must feast with Christ on the day we have been given, in the midst of the done, the incomplete, and the downright messy.         

   
photograph: San Leandro, May 2020.  The humble nasturtium reminds me that we can use some good lighting.   
 

   
    

Tuesday, May 5, 2020

All the News

Today, I am distracted.  The news I am reading about what is happening in some of our skilled nursing communities is heartbreaking.  I have spent almost 13 years visiting skilled nursing communities, singing in skilled nursing, praying, serving Communion, laughing, and sometimes weeping, all in the course of a single day.   I am missing those I serve and those I serve with.  SpiritCare has some of the most loyal, attentive volunteers that any ministry or 501c3 could hope for.  

Of course, serving these communities sometimes does have its difficulties, but I have always felt a sacred presence among the residents. Yes, in some communities the staff turnover is high.  It is not easy work and many employees are underpaid.  Yet, there are those I have seen every month for years, and my heart goes out to those who are impacted by this virus, and the prayer requests I have received.  
  
I have read more than one letter to the editor and seen more than one protest sign announcing that we should just let the old and frail die so everyone else can go about their lives.  However, we cannot let a callous few destabilize our intentions.  We may not be able to visit these communities in person, but we are reaching out in a variety of ways to let people know that they do not live and work in vain, and that even when facing something as silent and mysterious as this pandemic, God is right there with them. So are our prayers, our emails, our love.   

The reactions of ageism, selfishness, and anger that we are witnessing right now are rooted in fear.  However, we have always been called to face fear with love. Love is what SpiritCare has always brought to the communities, and love is what we will continue to bring.  Maybe in different ways right now, but we are still reaching out because that is what the ministry has done for over thirty years.   

Our gratitude to those who are contacting the ministry with offers of masks, prayers, and friendship.  Fear-filled times can bring out the worst in us, or the best.  Fortunately, we are seeing more of the latter.  Let us keep going.    
  
In Gratitude, 
Rev. Sue Ann    
   
 If we love each other, God remains in us and his love is made perfect in us.   
1 John 4:12b   
 
 photograph:  last day in April, 2020, San Leandro     
  
 
 
    

Friday, May 1, 2020

Activating Peace

"May you become in practice all that you are in potential. May the love that informs every cell in your body permeate every thought in your mind."  
Thomas Ashley-Farrand 


I came across this quote this morning.  I find it encouraging, and I pray you will as well.  I am thinking that the idea of working for peace is off track.  There is only peace.  Everything else is a reaction. Therefore, the only way to "work for peace" is to become the peace that is inherent in all of life.  It really is more of a revealing than an achievement.  
   
This week Tyler and I watched the movie, "Gandhi".  Gandhi's story is large, much like India herself, and difficult to contain in a three hour movie.  I liked the movie and certainly Ben Kingsley's portrayal of Gandhi was masterful.  However, I believe that a weakness of the movie is that it did not highlight that at the heart of Gandhi's life was a complete surrender to the teachings in The Bhagavad Gita ( Sanskrit for The Song of the Lord).  He truly was able to renounce the trappings of the world and allowed the text to come alive in him.  "The Gita has been a mother to me ever since I became first acquainted with it in 1889...But you must approach Mother Gita in all reverence, if you would benefit by her ministrations."* 

I have always found strength in Jesus' words in John 14:27:  "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."  Both Jesus and Gandhi knew the world to be a pretty unreliable source of peace.  Peace is of God, and is God, and God is always offering peace to us no matter what is going on around us.  May we accept this gift, and then live it in the world.  Then, we, too, can turn from being reactionaries to "actionaries," ones who through our very lives bring peace.     
  
*Gandhi the Man, How one man changed himself to change the world, Eknath Easwaran, Nilgiri Press, 2011, p.127  
  
photograph:  San Leandro, April 2020  



Monday, April 27, 2020

Language

Moving into Divine Unity is the highest prayer,
and it reaches down to your deepest needs. 
it brings your soul to life, 
it brings you more of life's fullness, 
and your life expands with grace and strength. 
This attitude of prayer
aligns most easily with your nature, 
and it requires the least effort to achieve,  
for it is simply what your soul already craves, 
and what it shall always crave 
until you truly understand 
that you are wrapped in Divine Unity: 
the goodness of God.     
 
Hazelnuts from Julian of Norwich 
Meditations on Divne Love , page 100
Ellyn Sanna     
  
photograph:  San Leandro, May 2019     
    
God speaks to us gently and lovingly.  Let us tune our hearts to hear that voice which speaks not the language of harsh criticism and judgement, but only of love.  This is a time of learning the language of the soul.  Let us practice such soul-speak.  Let us practice love.  Gratitude is a fine starting place as we learn to utter these new sounds rising gently from our depths. 
 
Love to you today, and always.     



Tuesday, April 21, 2020

The Radiant Mission

A couple of days ago, I discovered that I had a Kindle credit. As I explored what options might be available, I came across the book, "Dancing with Elephants, Mindfulness Training For Those Living With Dementia, Chronic Illness or an Aging Brain," written by Jarem Sawatsky. In this book, he writes about his journey with Huntington's disease and how he began to face the inevitable decline that this degenerative, hereditary and terminal illness ushers in. I have not finished the book, but I am finding it thought provoking. He faces his illness with faith, honesty, humor, and a willingness to ask for support from his family and friends.
I was originally drawn to the book because of the author's research into communities dedicated to peace (such as Thich Nhat Hanh's Plum Village) and I do want to read more about his work in this area. He was also led to spend some time with the medical doctor, Patch Adams (subject of a 1998 movie that starred Robin Williams as Patch). At the time of their meeting, Sawatsky had heard that Patch Adams had probably been present at about 10,000 death beds, usually dressed like a clown. When the author asked Patch about these experiences, Patch replied: “They are not deathbeds. They are living beds. The fact that you are ‘dying’… well, I see you as living. So where is the fun?”
This is very much at the heart of SpiritCare Ministry. No, we do not dress up like clowns, and I am a poor teller of jokes. However, there is much laughter as we tend to the lives that gather with us. Because we are a Christ centered ministry, the board, the pastors, and the volunteers know we are tending to the sacred. We do our best to instill the message that all are held fast in God's love, and that is true regardless of one's health, one's ability to communicate, one's particular faith journey, or whatever mistakes someone might have made or perhaps are making now. We do not come in judgement; we come in love.
Sawatsky said that after his time with Patch Adams, he began to reflect on this question: "What if the answer to most of our problems is to make the 
other radiant?" * There are challenges now, of course, because we cannot meet in person. However, one day we will be able to again. There is still much life to be lived. Let us go forth, pondering how we can bring out the light and love in all we meet. That mission can start today, with the next phone call, the next video conference, the next visit to the corner store. In fact, let's go ahead and start right now with ourselves.

and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,
then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday.

Isaiah 58:10 NIV
*page 86




photograph: San Leandro, April 2020

Sunday, April 19, 2020

Learning to Pray

"We become what we contemplate."
Roy Eugene Davis, The Bhagavad-Gita, God's Revealing Word       

 "For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."
Matthew 6:21, NIV


 
photograph: San Leandro, April 2020